Keep the light shining
To understand the language of compassion and love, we have to be willing to experience them. The intellect chews on ideas and concepts, yet the depth of understanding arises from our true experiences. It’s the courage to go “inside the skin” of the body and witness the qualities of expanding the space in our hearts as the actual act of breathing. I have been catching myself holding my breath or hoarding the tension around my chest as a protective layer from the outer thoughts.
Life right now is a huge roller coaster of emotional moods. Is my inner peace dependent on the outer world? So much of the collective consciousness is full of noise. I am being pulled daily into the extremes of polarity, and it is one big distraction from my own inner harmonious sounds of stillness. I am having to make an even greater effort to maintain balance as I continue to sustain a state of yoga.
Living is the experience of my practice, and I practice walking in the opposite way as I attempt to stay in a compassionate understanding that others might see, hear, and experience life from a different lens than I do. I catch myself in judgment, and that only leads to anger. Arising from my own need to control the situation as I am right and someone else is wrong.
Humility is my practice as I can feel my heart ache and my stomach churn with confusion over how the world can be so fragile. I witness so much venom being projected out. Language is tricky, and words hurt and tone can cause huge suffering. I live my practice by witnessing my own thoughts. How do I maintain passion, commitment, integrity, and voice my heart without appearing righteous or dogmatic in ideals? Where is my moral compass for living in right thought for right action?
I have a passion for living with the roots of humanity valued as a soul. Yes, the body is brilliant, and my “container” is my vehicle to experience life. However, to live in greater joy and thrive in the higher vibration, I have to move past my anger at seeing the pain of war, famine, and all the ways shaming is being used to control the spirit of humanity. This is a tipping point for me to celebrate the voice of the female.
I am roaring with passion to move past the horrors of an angry ego. I am making a deeper commitment to inspire healing and grace and to cultivate the willingness to live in truth. As I practice turning my inner light on, the sattvic guna, I will move that quality of inner light upward as an actual experience in my meditation to expand the glow of love. It sounds so lofty and ridiculous. It’s not an “airy fairy” concept when I actually can feel the shift from tension to ease. The nervous system shifts and the body armor melts its gripping nature.
As my mind stays focused on the sensation of the breath as the object of my practice, I feel an effortless quality of ease moving past the wall of my identity. I no longer hold on to my need for safety when I feel the fullness of my inner space. My mind can actually rest in my inner self.
Practice, practice, practice. It is not a quick fix, and yet, health demands my willingness to move in this direction inward. Turn off distractions, worry, and the noise of fixing things. Sit in the awkwardness of not knowing. Let the experience become a new memory or pattern, and trust that these tools are healing humanity. I am practicing for all beings.
I am passionate about maintaining our sweet studio as a place of rest and restoring the human spirit to feel safe and nourished. We are moving forward as a healing studio and offering wonderful new workshops and experiences to learn the tools of yoga. Asana is a wonderful tool but it is not the only tool. Yoga has so many ways to experience being balanced. Come as a beginner to every class and enjoy living fully today.
Blessings always,
Laura Jane
