Family is on my mind today. I think its very trendy right now to be who you are and fuck anyone who doesnt “get you”. Please do not take anything I am saying as advice, or as I think I know what’s best. I would like to say that I have no idea what’s going on most days, and frequently am so immersed in the moment I forget to pay my bills. So I am not a shining example of maturity, but I do my best every day.
I need to share today that when it comes to my family being authentic is a collaboration, I have spent all of my life with my family so who I have been, and who I am with them is full of depth, and subtle communication. If I become too firm in who “I am” I notice it with my family first because they will respond to it by firming up who they are, and now we are in a challenge, neither wants to budge so we are just stuck.
So If we are all one what does that mean in relationship to family? My experience of being one everything is the most palpable with my family, because I am brought to tears so frequently in relation to my family because the love I feel towards them softens my hardest edges, humbles me, and reminds me that who I am is a process of shedding away anything that tries to come between me and my cherished loved ones.
I am with my family throughout my whole life, and I know in my heart I would follow them to the end of time. We will find eachother again and again, we will continuously call each other towards our most open and loving selves.
I can still hear my beautiful grandmother calling to me from the spirit side, encouraging me to break my walls and share my most potent self with all of her children, grandchildren, and great grandchildren.
This experience of love that is deep enough to motivate me, destroy me, and create me all at once and I am brought to tears just thinking of my loving, dedicated, and ultra supportive mom Kicya7, my strong and unshakable father Lou, My beautiful, caring, and disciplined sister Kakeeka, my powerful, protective, and deeply loving brother Dustin, and My strong willed, passionate, and warrior brother Cory.
I can barely even write about the love I feel for my son Dash because it is so powerful and potent that I completely dissolve in the face of it. I would do anything for him and I wish everyone to experience this depth of love in their lives.
On our own we are powerful, yet together we are an unrelenting force that will move closer and closer to oneness together in life, and after it.
This poured from my heart, I hope you feel the love expressed here.